I love to stare at people. It's because they are more happening than the outside world. It's a type of entertainment for me, i.e. to read their faces other than reading books.
It reveals where they have come from and what type of a person they are. I'm not a pro at it nor do I aspire to be. I'm not a creep but I'm a person who can't keep her mouth shut for continuously 1 hour twice a day. So to keep my mind off from overthinking and trying to talk to myself, I observe people. And lately, I'm loving it. Not that it is a great pastime but it requires great patience. It's like I'm directing the people around me in my mind and when they don't do as per what I had thought they would, I scream in my head.
It reveals where they have come from and what type of a person they are. I'm not a pro at it nor do I aspire to be. I'm not a creep but I'm a person who can't keep her mouth shut for continuously 1 hour twice a day. So to keep my mind off from overthinking and trying to talk to myself, I observe people. And lately, I'm loving it. Not that it is a great pastime but it requires great patience. It's like I'm directing the people around me in my mind and when they don't do as per what I had thought they would, I scream in my head.
'Dude! You should've done that. It was right for you. Fuck people around you. Don't think about them. Just do it!'
Like I can be very aggressive while I debate with someone. Or I tend to always have a frown on my face whenever I'm away from my home. And that's the main reason of my headaches. These all observations have been a result of the ample time which I've spent with myself. This time, of my life, isn't precious to me and nor will I like it to happen to me again but I'm fine that it happened to me. These few solitary moments each day have made me realized something important every day. Looking forward.....? Nah...just living in the present.
