In February 2015, the time before we were ready for giving our 12th standard Board Exams, I along with my classmates attended a career coaching workshop where we were being examined and coached about our decision on our future career. The only thing which interested me was a personality. An old, confident yet cool personality who was able to stimulate my tear ducts and make me realize what my priority in my life was.
Rather than giving his introduction to you, which by the way carries most of his life's events, I would like to move ahead and share with you what happened when I had a personal interview session later on with him based on the graphology test that we all students had given.
He told us that we can address him by the term 'Dude' as he too called us 'dudes'. So when my turn came and when I went to sit in front of his desk, his sudden question left me shocked.
'Why so confused and emotional beta?' He asked this question as if to deliberately leave me with no answer. I had every explanation in my mind but the words just didn't come out of my mouth. I wanted to say that 'No! I'm not confused and where did you get that idea from? And as for being emotional...may be I am but so is every other person.' I think he understood that I didn't accept what he told me and thus he moved on to which career I should focus on based on my personality which he had deduced from my handwriting in the graphology test.
I had been given three choices :
Food Critic, Event Manager, & Police Officer
All three of which I have aspired at some point of time in my life, if not definitely then at least the basic version of these professions. But as usual my habit of backfiring took a toll again. This time I had my voice with me and told him that 'But I want to be an Author....I want to write.'
And he too, this time had an answer for this. The most appropriate profession according to him for me would be Event Management but as I wanted to be an Author, he said to be a Food Critic - Passion with Profession. I examined what he said and came to a conclusion that its fine with me. The idea of tasting food and getting paid for it was absolutely fine with me! But being a critic? Was that OK?
I knew that I wasn't what they called a 'Critic Material'. I mean just look at me! Even my handwriting sorted out that I was an Emotional Fool then how the hell will I be able to keep aside my emotions and start thinking practically on any matter? Not just any matter but FOOD! - the thing which I so passionately love to eat and cook and to which I can't subject to the process of examination and reviews.
And that's where the topic of today's post arises - The Emotional Critic.
Today, I watched 'Bajrangi Bhaijaan' - a much awaited Bollywood film which released on this Friday, the 17th of July. That movie was a bang on! At least for an Emo-Freak like me.
The movie is all about Humanity over Religion, Love over Power and Emotions over Words. Some say that Salman Khan is best for the role in the movie because 'he's best at defying the laws of the country'. Keeping aside his real life and focusing on the character and the message being forwarded is what important here and not connecting the movie with the actor's real life. I'm not a Salman Khan fan. But for me, loving something means without any doubt and second thoughts. And as for Critics - Please tell me that is this sentence, 'Salman Khan is best for the role in the movie because he's best at defying the laws of the country', is the review of the movie or the review of Salman Khan?
And that is why a person like me cannot criticize over this movie. Or over anything which I love. I know that criticism is not always negative but positive too but sometimes when all you see is good and feel is good, then why will you see bad? And being a Critic is a balance between thinking what is Good & the Bad - differentiating between them and coming to a conclusion is what matters and not your own emotions which struggle to not let you review things out. So as for me, I don't accept being a critic.
And as for my handwriting, my personality will change it automatically!
Moral of the story : Yes! I'm emotional and a crybaby. Deal with it!